Forgetting to Pray
Jan 11th, 2007 by michelle
An Honest Moment: I forgot to pray for myself yesterday.
This may sound like a funny statement, but if you knew what my day was like, you would think I was crazy not to pray: I WAS SICK.
What is referred to as “morning sickness” took over my entire day, and I was miserable. I was so sick that I had a hard time even taking care of my son. On several occasions, I thought I was going to pass out. At one point, I had to put my son into his crib just so that he could be in a safe place while I was so ill. I felt terrible. I was weak, dizzy, nauseated, and everything that comes with that.
A person would think that circumstances like that would cause a person to cry out to God, but, for some reason, I didn’t. I don’t know if I just lacked the energy or if my head was so fuzzy for lack of food that I couldn’t think straight. All I know is that this is a problem that I have always had with my prayer life.
I have never wanted to be a person who only goes to God when something is wrong. So, over the past few years, I have tried to go to God with everything, especially with the praises. Last night when I got into bed, the first thing that I prayed was a thank you for God getting me through the day. I always want to be thankful for all that God has given me, but this has caused me to neglect my own needs. I will pray for others whenever I can, but to pray for myself sometimes feels selfish. I know that other people’s problems are so much bigger than mine, but that doesn’t mean that God cares any less for what is going on in my life.
I am going to pray today– for myself. God knows I need it!
You have my prayers, Lord have Mercy, Lord have Mercy, Lord have Mercy.
Feel better soon.
I’m sorry you are feeling so sick. I can’t even imagine. Hope you get better soon.
I’ve gotten hyperemesis gravitas with each of my pregnancies. I know how awful it can be. You are in my prayers.